Because if I’m not proud, I’ll fall ever deeper into the pit and I can’t afford to and don’t want to.
So I’m listing the reasons why I’m proud of myself today:
I took my kids on holiday. They had so much fun they didn’t want to come home. I made wonderful memories and they went into school this morning happy.
I phoned my therapist. I knew she wouldn’t be there but I left a message, I know she’ll phone me back. I wasn’t going to phone, but I did.
I have painted.
I’ve listened to some relaxing sounds in the sunshine.
I’ve looked up, and seen the aeroplanes, the birds, the insects all flying above me.
I’ve meditated. OK, I struggled with it but I still tried.
I’ve organised my husbands birthday.
I’ve made an alteration to a plan which makes my life easier.
I’ve applied for something. I don’t expect anything to come of it but I’ve given myself a chance to be considered instead of thinking ‘don’t be ridiculous’.
That’s an OK list, I can be proud of myself today.