Today I need to be proud of myself 

Because if I’m not proud, I’ll fall ever deeper into the pit and I can’t afford to and don’t want to.

So I’m listing the reasons why I’m proud of myself today:

I took my kids on holiday. They had so much fun they didn’t want to come home. I made wonderful memories and they went into school this morning happy.

I phoned my therapist. I knew she wouldn’t be there but I left a message, I know she’ll phone me back. I wasn’t going to phone, but I did.

I have painted.

I’ve listened to some relaxing sounds in the sunshine. 

I’ve looked up, and seen the aeroplanes, the birds, the insects all flying above me.

I’ve meditated. OK, I struggled with it but I still tried.

I’ve organised my husbands birthday.

I’ve made an alteration to a plan which makes my life easier.

I’ve applied for something. I don’t expect anything to come of it but I’ve given myself a chance to be considered instead of thinking ‘don’t be ridiculous’.

That’s an OK list, I can be proud of myself today.

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